Give me strength to go thru this ya Allah.
how i feel about love?
there is actually so many ways to interpret it. you know it depends on how strong, how dedicate, how compromise you are with each other. in my case, i dont know anymore. as i type this with tears streaming down my face, i just wish 'you' were here to say that u meant your sorry and tell me how much you want me in your life and i just want to be comfortable and feel secure in your arms again. sadly it didnt happen. and i am wondering if it will ever happen?
i dont know. i really dont know whats going on between us both. is it me whos getting demanding? or is it u whos trying to live your life going beyond 'our' comfort zone? we already talk about this. infact, its tiring me to keep on arguing on the same thing again and again. damn it, can u please, please, try to understand me? i hate it when you are trying to run away from the problems. i hate it how u want me to approach you everytime. seriously, i dont know how i should be feeling. is it you or me that is heartless?
u once ask me what i want you to do to make me happy? the answer is, your attention. as simple as that. i dont mean that i want your attention like attention-kinda-attention. i want to feel loved, i want to wake up knowing that u give me a morning text saying that i am beautiful. asking me hows my day as if it is your first time texting me, telling me your sorry for your every late reply. welcoming me with roses, treating me like im the only princess, i just want to feel like i am important to you. i dont know if it is too much to ask from you. i dont know if u can ever stand me. can u?
i have got no one to express my feelings and it is like a very deep cut to my heart. it is just so heartbreaking i cannot take it anymore that i put my every thought at my finger tips. i just hope that u will understand me a lil bit more by reading this. ( if he ever reads this )
xx.
